“Mom, I have to tell you something.” I said with butterflies in my stomach.
“What is it honey, is everything alright?” She asked with concern in her voice.
“Uh… Well, Mom…”
“What is it Alex, what’s wrong? Spit it out.” She said impatiently.
“Nothing is wrong.” I almost chicken out.
“Then what is it son?” She asked very seriously.
I paused, took a deep breath and put down my fork. I took a big drink of wine and slowly looked up into her eyes.
“Mom, I love you with all my heart, I’m so attracted to you, I want to make love with you. I’m sorry but I can’t help it.” I said, almost apologizing.
Mom broke out in laughter for a few seconds and stopped when she saw the look on my face.
“Alex, stop kidding with me. What is going on with you?”
“Mom I’m totally serious, I have been attracted to you for years. I thought it would go away but it’s not. I want you so bad, every time I masturbate I think of you.” I said with embarrassment in my voice.
“Oh Alex, you shouldn’t be saying that to me.” She said with a stern look on her face.
“Sorry Mom, I know it’s wrong. I was hoping I would grow out of it.” I said looking down.
“I don’t know what to say Alex.” She said
“Are you mad at me Mom?”
“I know Mom but this has been going on for years and years, now I want you more than ever.” I said shyly.
“Alex this is not going to happen. You need to find another girlfriend and it will pass. I’m flattered but it’s not something we should get into.” She said with a frustrated look on her face.
I decided to tell a little white lie. I’m not a virgin but I thought if I got desperate, I would play the virgin card to get more sympathy. What did I have to lose.
“Mom, I’ve never had sex before. I’m still a virgin and I want you to be my first.” I said as I lied through my teeth.
“Oh Alex, your a handsome young man. You’ll find a nice girl soon. You have to be patient, something will come around.” She said trying to dodge a bullet.
“Mom, all my friends have had sex, a lot of sex. I want it to be special, you’re the only woman in the world I want. I want to do it with you.” I said, not being shy anymore.
“Alex, come on. You have to forget about this.” She said with concern.
“Mom, please, don’t say no. Just think about it. I bet if you thought about it when you’re alone, you might change your mind.” I said pleading my case.
“Son, I can’t think of that. It’s too kinky, you know that.”
“It’s not kinky if we love each other and care for each other.” I said as my embarrassment dissipated.